It’s an old old concept. You want experiences over and above your “day to day” life – but you don’t have money to achieve this.

So, you work and the literal cost of living, coupled with the pursuit of “toys” (to keep you sufficiently entertained!) and things that are not going to get you to your destination, litter the twisted pathway, as you look behind you at the time gone by.

Focus.

Focus is the thing that, if lacked, will lead you nowhere. There will be no sunlit upland in the future, no happy ending.

So, do you settle for less than your life could be? Become a dreamer with an unfulfilled soul, drink/take drugs/eat food/whateveryouraddictionis to compensate for your failure – become mediocre?

Or…

Do you try again to find the path. To expunge (love that word!!) things from your life that distract and create the bends in the road, regain and strengthen your resolve and push on once again for that destination in your mind?

I’m going for option 2. I’m going to try, and bloody succeed as much as I am able to with a couple of restrictions that life has thrown my way – as a good person I cannot with good conscience disappear while a certain family situation unfolds.

But. I am going to be ready when that resolves itself, no more pussyfooting around…